Alien Abduction Help Forum

At age 50 I appear to be reaching an awakening. Many things are coming together and I feel the need to seek some answers. I have unexplained scars. I've always had "flying" dreams and sleep paralysis where I want to scream but can't. This is the third period of my life where this has become frequent. It occurred often when I was a child between the ages of 8 and 12, then in my early 20's and it is again occurring. I have vivid memories of removing a "free-floating" object from my arm in my 20's, I actually cut it out. I have the scar on my arm from where this occurred as well as other unexplained round scars on my arms and a very large vertical scar on my leg that neither of my parents could ever explain, it looks like a surgical scar but I've never had surgery on my legs.
I have zero recollection of ever being abducted or encountering aliens. I do have vivid recollection of "knowing" people were in my bedroom during periods of sleep paralysis but had no memory of actually seeing people. The only time that I can recall seeing what might be considered a UFO was while in a car with my mother when I was 8 years old, we both saw an object come low down over the lake as we were about to leave a parking lot at night, we were alone, no other cars close by and my mother gunned it out of there. We both recounted the story through the years.
I don't even know why I am reaching out now. I don't know what any of this means but I am left with a burning need suddenly to try to put these pieces together. I'm a well adjusted, happily married Mom to two great kids.
Thanks for the support.

...Sorry long reply, but I'm new to this too...

I completely understand. I am a 49 year old woman with 2 daughters, all my life I have had "dreams" that have bothered me terribly, then when my oldest daughter was 2 and I was pregnant with my youngest daughter I woke up from one of these dreams. After these dreams I physically can not move for about 10 minutes, during this time my 2year old daughter comes into my room and climbed up on me. She put her little hands on my face and told me, the little doctor told her to tell me not to be afraid when the strangers come. 22 years later that still makes the hair stand up on my arms. I have never told anyone these things and then recently I had another of these dreams. I may be crazy... who knows, but I do know a few other things about me. Because of these dreams I am unable to commit to a life long relationship because I have an irrational fear it would interfere with something, I have an unexplained dent in my forehead that has not been there all my life and is unexplained and last week, my now 24 year old daugter called me at 4:40 to relay a dream she just had that is a mirror of some of my own and I have never mentioned any of this to her or anyone. Some of these dreams are still very vivid in my memory and will not fade and sometimes during these dreams, as the light is fading from my room the "ghost" that stands watch until the light has faded completely, I see my oldest daughter sitting on me her little hands on my face telling me not to be afraid when the strangers come. She has a plethra of medical issues, because she is a verified Chimera at age 21 when her second child was born, when she was 3 she had 2 BB sized, unexlained masses in her neck, melanoma at 14, that list goes on and on. A twin in utero with vanishing twin syndrome. I, myself, proven with blood work, am menopausal, last year at my annual gyno visit shocked my doc with the news I had a period with no medical explaination and he will freak in June when I go back and tell him yet again I have had a lone period in this calendar year (which started around 2 weeks after a dream and I have all my girly bits). Don't get me wrong, I am not a flake, I spent many years working as a haz mat specialist doing waste disposal and clean up after the UST rush was over I was laid off, after that I moved to one of the largest cell phone providers in the US where I am one of five that organizes and implements the collection proceedures (boo hiss, I know but the insurance got me through some of daughter number one's health issues)