Hi Everybody
Posted: Mon Oct 31, 2011 5:05 pm
Hi
My name is Alison, and I'm a 22 year old girl living in a small town from Mexico. I feel relieved now that I've been able to find this comunity and read your stories, makes me feel not so lonely. Thanks so much to the Admins for accepting me.
I've been having this strange experiences since I was 15 years old, but back then they weren't so frecuent... They've increased frecuency since I was 17, specially the last copuple of years.
I used to refer my experiences as nightmares, cause that's what I've allowed myself to think they are, but I've been finding this "evidence", theese signs, that this so called nightmares of mine may be something more than just bad dreams.
It always happens late at night, I wake up in my room, scared, cold sewating and feeling my heart pumping really fast, I can almost feel it inside my ears. I'm in my room but I feel this presence, like someone is in the room with me... or was, cause I've never been able to see anybody.
This has been happening the same way since the beginning, and I was submited to a psychologist when I was younger. They treated me for sleep disorder and diagnosed with "Night Terrors". Both therapists I've seen (2 different) encouraged me to talk about my "nightmares", but the thing is, I've never been able to remember them. All I know is this terrible fear and that feeling of someone in my room, even that feeling of someone watching me.
At 17 I started to have trouble at school, headhaches and poor sleep cuality, so I was feeling tired and weak during the day. My 2nd therapist also a Psychiatrist, prescribed me diazepam, first 5mg... then 10 after a couple of months. at first I was able to sleep better, but then it started all over... Nightmares where still there, and still couldn't remember what they were about.
What's been scaring me lately are this bruises all over my body, bruises that I don't think can be result of any accidental injury I can remember. When I wake up from the nightmares, I feel this pain, pain wherever turns out to be a bruise in the morning. There's nothing in my bed I can be hurting myself with, and I've been observed for a few in a sleep clinic for somnambulism, but the results where negative. I've been scanned, blood tested, sleep deprived, sleep tested... no doctor can give me a satisfying answer... Anything but "You're nervous, you need to calm down"... "This is an anxious disorder, have some valium and some therapy"...
What's bothering me is that, I've already done that... no effect at all... And I've started to feel ill again... My last blood tests have shown some anemia and now I've been given some iron suplements.
I'm scared, and I even ashamed that I've beguin to think something's going on with me doctors can't explain... That's why I've come to you guys, I wander if any of you have experienced this sort of things, and how have you dealt with them.
Thankyou very much for reading
My name is Alison, and I'm a 22 year old girl living in a small town from Mexico. I feel relieved now that I've been able to find this comunity and read your stories, makes me feel not so lonely. Thanks so much to the Admins for accepting me.
I've been having this strange experiences since I was 15 years old, but back then they weren't so frecuent... They've increased frecuency since I was 17, specially the last copuple of years.
I used to refer my experiences as nightmares, cause that's what I've allowed myself to think they are, but I've been finding this "evidence", theese signs, that this so called nightmares of mine may be something more than just bad dreams.
It always happens late at night, I wake up in my room, scared, cold sewating and feeling my heart pumping really fast, I can almost feel it inside my ears. I'm in my room but I feel this presence, like someone is in the room with me... or was, cause I've never been able to see anybody.
This has been happening the same way since the beginning, and I was submited to a psychologist when I was younger. They treated me for sleep disorder and diagnosed with "Night Terrors". Both therapists I've seen (2 different) encouraged me to talk about my "nightmares", but the thing is, I've never been able to remember them. All I know is this terrible fear and that feeling of someone in my room, even that feeling of someone watching me.
At 17 I started to have trouble at school, headhaches and poor sleep cuality, so I was feeling tired and weak during the day. My 2nd therapist also a Psychiatrist, prescribed me diazepam, first 5mg... then 10 after a couple of months. at first I was able to sleep better, but then it started all over... Nightmares where still there, and still couldn't remember what they were about.
What's been scaring me lately are this bruises all over my body, bruises that I don't think can be result of any accidental injury I can remember. When I wake up from the nightmares, I feel this pain, pain wherever turns out to be a bruise in the morning. There's nothing in my bed I can be hurting myself with, and I've been observed for a few in a sleep clinic for somnambulism, but the results where negative. I've been scanned, blood tested, sleep deprived, sleep tested... no doctor can give me a satisfying answer... Anything but "You're nervous, you need to calm down"... "This is an anxious disorder, have some valium and some therapy"...
What's bothering me is that, I've already done that... no effect at all... And I've started to feel ill again... My last blood tests have shown some anemia and now I've been given some iron suplements.
I'm scared, and I even ashamed that I've beguin to think something's going on with me doctors can't explain... That's why I've come to you guys, I wander if any of you have experienced this sort of things, and how have you dealt with them.
Thankyou very much for reading