Can You Stay On the Horse?
Posted: Mon May 03, 2010 5:46 pm
Dear Bonnie,
I am enjoying your book Invitation to the Self very much. I found so many confirmations of what I also learned. That really helps to feel more sure that I am not mistaken. Thank you!
Right now I just read towards the end:
"I had always loved horses and had ridden a few times in the waking world but, for some reason, in my dreams I was never able to catch a horse and get on its back. For years, I worked my way up to being near one and finally getting close enough to reach out and grab it, but I could not get on.
Trying to analyze the situation, I believe it had something to do with my own spiritual growth and reaching a level at which I had control and was in touch with my higher self. Step by monotonously slow step, I was able to get on the horse’s back, but would then be promptly dismounted. Finally, after about 20 years of failed attempts, I was able to calmly approach a horse, climb on and ride."
I get on that horse too now and then, but so far I always have fallen off, back into my human earthly awareness again. It is as if I am very much afraid to stay on its back and have it bring me to my true Self. Days go by with me looking for other things to do, postponing the "staying on the horse" practice. Or I finally do it only for a minute, like just before going to sleep... even though I have planned to do it for an hour every day...
I know that Who we really are is very courageous, and in that sense fearless. But as a human, that is a different matter...
I found this short video clip called "Can You Stay On the Horse?" which precisely addresses this issue of coming to our true Self again in awareness:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qJcCIwJXK4E
One of these days I'll finally do it for an hour again... and eventually even longer if necessary.
As you say: "Fear is the great killer, and everybody has some kind of fear hidden inside. In order to overcome your fear, you must face it and deal with it. Use your willpower to defeat what scares you. You are stronger than your fear, because you have created the fear yourself. It is part of you that you can lose, just like losing weight when you go on a diet."
Thank you for those encouraging words.
I am enjoying your book Invitation to the Self very much. I found so many confirmations of what I also learned. That really helps to feel more sure that I am not mistaken. Thank you!
Right now I just read towards the end:
"I had always loved horses and had ridden a few times in the waking world but, for some reason, in my dreams I was never able to catch a horse and get on its back. For years, I worked my way up to being near one and finally getting close enough to reach out and grab it, but I could not get on.
Trying to analyze the situation, I believe it had something to do with my own spiritual growth and reaching a level at which I had control and was in touch with my higher self. Step by monotonously slow step, I was able to get on the horse’s back, but would then be promptly dismounted. Finally, after about 20 years of failed attempts, I was able to calmly approach a horse, climb on and ride."
I get on that horse too now and then, but so far I always have fallen off, back into my human earthly awareness again. It is as if I am very much afraid to stay on its back and have it bring me to my true Self. Days go by with me looking for other things to do, postponing the "staying on the horse" practice. Or I finally do it only for a minute, like just before going to sleep... even though I have planned to do it for an hour every day...
I know that Who we really are is very courageous, and in that sense fearless. But as a human, that is a different matter...
I found this short video clip called "Can You Stay On the Horse?" which precisely addresses this issue of coming to our true Self again in awareness:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qJcCIwJXK4E
One of these days I'll finally do it for an hour again... and eventually even longer if necessary.
As you say: "Fear is the great killer, and everybody has some kind of fear hidden inside. In order to overcome your fear, you must face it and deal with it. Use your willpower to defeat what scares you. You are stronger than your fear, because you have created the fear yourself. It is part of you that you can lose, just like losing weight when you go on a diet."
Thank you for those encouraging words.