Bonnie is right. Be careful.
There was a movie about a psychologist in Alaska in a town that was having abductions. When she would hypnotize people, it would go horribly wrong. I am not saying this might happen, only saying it 'might'. Be careful. I think that movie was 'Close Encounters of the Fourth Kind', but not sure. Miya Jojovich is in it.
I was hypnotized by someone that came to our door, wanting to hypnotize me. I shouldnt have. How did they know??? Who was this person? Very expensive blue suit, perfect gray hair, looked like someone from the CIA. I remember seeing the carpet of the craft, the stainless steel trim, my shoes on the carpet. Simply amazing. Never went past that part, never did it since, perhaps 20 years ago.
This is a good group of people. I would think you would be fine talking here. Maybe talking privately via messenger in the forum or something.
I remember going to a MUFON meeting, also about 20 years ago. lol... It was so funny. One guy grabs me by the shoulders, shakes me and says 'I want them to take me!!!'. I was in shock. What if they did something bad to him? What if it was a bad race that took him. I even said something like that to him and he says he didnt care. I was speechless. I just walked away. Some very 'different' people sometimes meet at those kind of places. If only you could find a 'real' group to meet with and talk to.
Also... You want to know more about whats going on. Why not ask them? Start practicing daily 'if' you are in a dream, to 'remember' to ask them 'hey, what is this all about? Could you please tell me what is going on? Can you tell me what you are doing to me?' Be nice, professional, and serious about it. Maybe they will tell you. You never know. Sometimes, a serious, humble approach can do wonders.
For me, I also pray about it. Now and then I'll get an answer. Not always, but I learned to listen when praying. Joyce Meyers once said, prayer is 50% talking and 50% listening. Two way street. But remember, other spirits talk as well, you might hear something from someone else, and it might be bad, so be careful there as well. For me, you get a sense in the heart that it is genuine. With a bad message, I'll just ignore it, shrug it off.
Its hard to remember things in this area. The general concensus is that there is a massive amount of people being watched and visited, checked on, tested, etc. MUFON found some very wild information... People with negative blood are very rare, and green eyes are also, and they are usually with this negative blood type that is rare. Those are also the people usually abducted. It appears that this blood type 'came to be' recently in human history. (Something else to think on).
Do you have green eyes and negative blood type? (I do, the green eyes part, sort of hazel).
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