New user here! Hi! My rambling introduction...
Posted: Wed Nov 09, 2016 8:08 pm
Despite being a witness to strange phenomena, I don't feel afraid. I don't think I'm going crazy, either. I've always been one to easily accept what I experience as true instead of going into denial. I used to be afraid in the past, however. I let anxiety rule my life and wasted energy worrying. Let me tell you, it is exhausting to feel this way. I'm not afraid anymore of the unknown because I adopted an interesting mindset. You see...whether I'm an abductee, connected with extraterrestrial beings in another way, or whoever and whatever I am, I believe that I am a human filled with light and purity. I've been called weird and unique all my life, negative and positive connotations attached. People have also described me as genuine. I've struggled and failed to be like the rest of the human race. I couldn't camouflage well at all. "Special", always an outcast, I wondered if I was more than human. Certainly, I feel as if I have a mission in this world. I always imagined my mission as a spiritual teacher or a rebel that challenges society. Something to do with reforming of the world. So, as a human filled with a light power inside me, I'm not afraid. Whenever it's dark and the feeling of eyes are on me, my heart rate heightens. In my mind, I sing a poetic song of healing I created. It's very powerful to me, and I physically feel its effects when I sing and visualize the picturesque words. I visualize my body glowing with a white light and bursting outward to reach every dark corner of the house. Sometimes I visualize a great beam of white light shining on me from above. All this gives me courage. When I feel strong and invulnerable, it's as if nothing can touch nor harm me. It can bring a wave of goosebumps to your skin and momentarily free you from sadness, as well, or at least it does for me. Think of it as whatever you wish: a prayer to God for inner strength, a magical incantation, a positive poem that uplifts your feelings, etc....
Give me power, let me glow
Brush away the biting woe
In my heart gentleness sow
Oh, my king, please let them know
From the sea rises the sun
A bright new day has begun
Against darkness light has won
Misery is compelled to run
Run away!
Run away!
This light inside me is love. I am able to tell people their past lives and see my own, whether or not reincarnation truly exists. According to my most recent past life, I was a healer inhabitant of the underground city of Telos and an energy guardian of Mt. Shasta. I have connections to Telos and the Lemurians living there in my present life, as well. Lemurians are said to be an ancient mixed race on earth from varying alien star systems who fled the sinking continent of Lemuria. The refugees built Telos. They're quite humanoid in appearance, just taller. Two distinctly masculine energy forms visit, from time to time, to make sure I'm alive and well. They knew me as one of their own and still support me. My goal is to live a long life. I keep dying young in all my lives.
I've had some intriguing dreams. If you click on my username in the list of topics on the General Discussion page, it will direct you to my profile page where I talk about meeting a blonde man operating a UFO in a dream. My dreams are creative and vivid, so sometimes I amusingly call myself a "dream warrior". I don't think I ever dreamed of grey aliens, but I've dreamed of humanoid beings before, and once I dreamed of reptilian beings.
Related to Mt. Shasta, two years ago I dreamed that I was with some people in my living room, whom I don't recognize in real life. I was speaking to a young man around my age with piercing black eyes full of hatred toward me. I stood in front of the TV while he reclined on the couch. It took courage to voice what I wanted to say to him, so I suppose I was feeling defensive and protective about some beliefs of mine. I remember saying something, full of passion, along these lines: "You will never be able to stop me. You can never defeat me. Yes, before we reincarnated into human bodies, you were the force of darkness creeping onto the mountain, I was a warrior of light, and I allowed myself to be vanquished by you...but only so that you were distracted enough for my friends to defeat you." He gave an animalistic growl. I don't understand what occurred after that, but the young man and I exchanged words before parting our ways to prepare for battle. I knelt with tears in my eyes and prayed in solitude, "God, you said that you would grant one wish of every person who asked. While most people would ask for a mansion or for a million dollars, I ask for wisdom. God, please grant me wisdom like you granted King Solomon in the past." A soft voice kindly replied in my mind, "Wisdom is already within you." "Then, God," I pleaded, "please make my wisdom stronger."
I'm an Empath, I'm clairvoyant and have a lot of vivid, creative dreams about flying, exploring new worlds, and apocalyptic situations, I've seen full-blown spirits twice in my life (when I was five and last year, 2015, in the middle of October), and I learned last year that I have a "spider sense". (I felt electricity in the air one night as I was filling up my gas tank, and, soon after, this shady car slowly drove up and stopped near me. The electric feeling in the air told me the people inside the car had dangerous intentions, so I got into the passenger side of the car and drove off.) Otherwise, I often see sparkles in the air, flashes of white light like lightning or camera flashes, invisible movement in the air, shadows peeking into rooms from the doorway, the feeling of someone looking over my shoulder at my phone with me at night in bed, and small orbs of light zipping and disappearing in my peripheral vision. I see most things out of the corner of my right eye. Items sometimes go missing and reappear in the exact same place. I also had two visitation dreams from my deceased grandfather. As a very small child, I used to shut the door to my bedroom and have conversations with my deceased great grandparents, who told me they loved me very much. I sense spiritual presences, and I have known things about people I shouldn't possibly have known. I have some clairaudience, as well.
I have a huge love for people in my heart. It's an intense love that's sometimes overwhelming because I feel all my emotions powerfully. Yet, a lot of times, people's behaviors are confusing and frustrating. I don't trust anyone, even though I look at them kindly and say things to try to bring smiles to their faces when they're plagued with stress and misery. I think my trust issues mainly stem from my ability to read people. It's like I can tell what their thoughts and intentions are. I am fascinated with people's body language and other behaviors in social interaction, so subjects like sociology are interesting to me. I take notes on human behavior and ask questions about things people don't normally think about. (For example, did you know that under certain circumstances humans raise their eyebrows when talking to strangers to show nonaggression? Raising eyebrows does not always implicate an inquiry or sexual undertones.) Trying on my patience, humans have a lot of inner ugliness along with inner beauty, and the ugliness intimidates me and causes me to want to interact very little. I prefer people-watching... Yet when I experience empathy with another person, it is the most beautiful thing about humanity I have ever known.
There is so much I'd like to ramble about! As well as interested in other people's experiences, I'm questioning if I'm more than a mere human. If not genetically more than human, spiritually I am. I don't feel like a "muggle". I know my post is long, and I know my writing style is kind of weird like what an author would write. So, hello everybody, here's my introductory post.
Give me power, let me glow
Brush away the biting woe
In my heart gentleness sow
Oh, my king, please let them know
From the sea rises the sun
A bright new day has begun
Against darkness light has won
Misery is compelled to run
Run away!
Run away!
This light inside me is love. I am able to tell people their past lives and see my own, whether or not reincarnation truly exists. According to my most recent past life, I was a healer inhabitant of the underground city of Telos and an energy guardian of Mt. Shasta. I have connections to Telos and the Lemurians living there in my present life, as well. Lemurians are said to be an ancient mixed race on earth from varying alien star systems who fled the sinking continent of Lemuria. The refugees built Telos. They're quite humanoid in appearance, just taller. Two distinctly masculine energy forms visit, from time to time, to make sure I'm alive and well. They knew me as one of their own and still support me. My goal is to live a long life. I keep dying young in all my lives.
I've had some intriguing dreams. If you click on my username in the list of topics on the General Discussion page, it will direct you to my profile page where I talk about meeting a blonde man operating a UFO in a dream. My dreams are creative and vivid, so sometimes I amusingly call myself a "dream warrior". I don't think I ever dreamed of grey aliens, but I've dreamed of humanoid beings before, and once I dreamed of reptilian beings.
Related to Mt. Shasta, two years ago I dreamed that I was with some people in my living room, whom I don't recognize in real life. I was speaking to a young man around my age with piercing black eyes full of hatred toward me. I stood in front of the TV while he reclined on the couch. It took courage to voice what I wanted to say to him, so I suppose I was feeling defensive and protective about some beliefs of mine. I remember saying something, full of passion, along these lines: "You will never be able to stop me. You can never defeat me. Yes, before we reincarnated into human bodies, you were the force of darkness creeping onto the mountain, I was a warrior of light, and I allowed myself to be vanquished by you...but only so that you were distracted enough for my friends to defeat you." He gave an animalistic growl. I don't understand what occurred after that, but the young man and I exchanged words before parting our ways to prepare for battle. I knelt with tears in my eyes and prayed in solitude, "God, you said that you would grant one wish of every person who asked. While most people would ask for a mansion or for a million dollars, I ask for wisdom. God, please grant me wisdom like you granted King Solomon in the past." A soft voice kindly replied in my mind, "Wisdom is already within you." "Then, God," I pleaded, "please make my wisdom stronger."
I'm an Empath, I'm clairvoyant and have a lot of vivid, creative dreams about flying, exploring new worlds, and apocalyptic situations, I've seen full-blown spirits twice in my life (when I was five and last year, 2015, in the middle of October), and I learned last year that I have a "spider sense". (I felt electricity in the air one night as I was filling up my gas tank, and, soon after, this shady car slowly drove up and stopped near me. The electric feeling in the air told me the people inside the car had dangerous intentions, so I got into the passenger side of the car and drove off.) Otherwise, I often see sparkles in the air, flashes of white light like lightning or camera flashes, invisible movement in the air, shadows peeking into rooms from the doorway, the feeling of someone looking over my shoulder at my phone with me at night in bed, and small orbs of light zipping and disappearing in my peripheral vision. I see most things out of the corner of my right eye. Items sometimes go missing and reappear in the exact same place. I also had two visitation dreams from my deceased grandfather. As a very small child, I used to shut the door to my bedroom and have conversations with my deceased great grandparents, who told me they loved me very much. I sense spiritual presences, and I have known things about people I shouldn't possibly have known. I have some clairaudience, as well.
I have a huge love for people in my heart. It's an intense love that's sometimes overwhelming because I feel all my emotions powerfully. Yet, a lot of times, people's behaviors are confusing and frustrating. I don't trust anyone, even though I look at them kindly and say things to try to bring smiles to their faces when they're plagued with stress and misery. I think my trust issues mainly stem from my ability to read people. It's like I can tell what their thoughts and intentions are. I am fascinated with people's body language and other behaviors in social interaction, so subjects like sociology are interesting to me. I take notes on human behavior and ask questions about things people don't normally think about. (For example, did you know that under certain circumstances humans raise their eyebrows when talking to strangers to show nonaggression? Raising eyebrows does not always implicate an inquiry or sexual undertones.) Trying on my patience, humans have a lot of inner ugliness along with inner beauty, and the ugliness intimidates me and causes me to want to interact very little. I prefer people-watching... Yet when I experience empathy with another person, it is the most beautiful thing about humanity I have ever known.
There is so much I'd like to ramble about! As well as interested in other people's experiences, I'm questioning if I'm more than a mere human. If not genetically more than human, spiritually I am. I don't feel like a "muggle". I know my post is long, and I know my writing style is kind of weird like what an author would write. So, hello everybody, here's my introductory post.