an introduction/experience post??
Posted: Sat Dec 10, 2016 8:30 pm
first of all, hello everyone! i'm very happy to be a part of this community and have been eagerly awaiting my acceptance email.
i'll start with a little bit about myself.
my name is orion, and i'm a 20yo boy.
that is not my given name nor is it my assigned gender. however, these are my preferences and i ask kindly that you please respect them. i am mentioning this now in the event that i must post photos of scoop marks and the like on my body or if anyone wants to skype call or speak to me.
i have been reading the posts on this forum since i discovered it and i believe that i am "waking up"! at least, i hope that i am.
my heart wants me to meet the star people. i am already so attached to them and have so much love in my heart! i only want to be friends with them. i feel like my home is out there... i do not believe i was ever meant to be on earth, and that's why i'm having so many struggles and poor fortune keeps befalling me. i keep being misled and hurt by others, and this is partly because i love so deeply, and want to look past any flaws i may see within those who i make an important part of my life.
i believe that i've already been contacted, though i'm not sure if it is paranormal in nature or extraterrestrial. however, my heart definitely feels that it's extraterrestrial.
whenever i was an adolescent, i believe i was abducted repeatedly. however, i didn't make this connection until much more recently, until this year in fact. if anyone else stumbles upon this thread and wishes to reply with their own experiences or thoughts in regard to mine, then please, please do.
at this time in my life, my family had built a house and had recently moved into it. my mother had gotten her tubes tied after me, but then remarried and had a rather dangerous operation to have them untied. it was doubtful that she would even conceive after this given her age and the whole situation. yet, remarkably, she went on to have 3 more children. the oldest is 11 years younger than me.
so my mother was pregnant with her first son, my little brother. i was about 13. i had a deep fascination with space and rather than watching what... well, what other children/teens were watching, i would find myself watching the sci-fi channel or discovery. i remember being very young, probably about 5, and being so excited whenever the new season of stargate sg1 aired!! there is a video of me at age 4, naming all of the planets on a diagram. i was well ahead of my time then and i still feel as though i am.
i had a stereo and tv in my room. these were the first few things affected.
in the middle of the night, my stereo would turn on by itself. it would be much louder than i remember leaving it, and the six-cd changer would open and begin switching through the CDs. once this started, it happened very often, probably weekly. i would always wake in a sweat and with my heart racing when this occurred.
i had told my parents and they told me i had been watching too much ghost hunters and i had probably just set my alarm incorrectly, but i had never changed it from 6am. ever.
things began happening more publicly and around my family as well. i remember interference on my tv when it was on, sometimes showing strange symbols mixed in with the static. there would also be interference over the baby monitor my mother had in the nursery and into her room. it was always louder than the volume was at the time.
at one point, my step-dad thought a man said his name, and was so convinced he stepped out of the shower and began looking for his father in a towel. i told him there was nothing, there was no one, but he said he could've sworn it came from just outside the master bathroom. i'm wondering if it was over the baby monitor.
so all of these things happened. occasionally, stuff would fly off countertops and we would hear running across the back porch or on the roof. we honestly believed we were haunted, and believed that it was in fact a poltergeist. at the time, i was a pubescent girl* with depression. it didn't seem out of the ordinary for a negative entity to attach itself to me.
the thing was, i never felt threatened. i would awake in fear, and i had terrible nightmares. i dreamt i was being drug from my bed by my ankle all around the house, even past my parents who just wouldn't wake up. if i screamed, my voice wouldn't come out; it would just be a breath or gasp. i began begging that i didn't have those dreams. i began praying. i began hoping that the stereo wouldn't turn on because i was so tired and only wanted rest.
soon i had two more dreams. in one, i dreamt i had gathered all the energy in the room in my palm. i didn't do anything with it there, but just held it. it was warm. then, on another, i dreamt that i focused very hard on my body and laid back in my bed. before i knew it, i felt myself trembling, but i was levitating off the mattress. this was a dream of course; i cannot be sure if it actually happened.
whenever we began to move into a new house (we were now a family of 6 and needed more room!), things began to pick up tremendously, further affirming the paranormal speculations. everything came to a head whenever i once again woke up with my heart racing in fear. i was facing my closet, and before me there was a figure.
i rationalized everything very quickly. i had not left my closet door open so this was not clothing making an illusion of a figure. i could not see through him. there was something there. i was frozen, but i wasn't innately afraid. i was just... frozen, in shock?
i remember it all very vividly and i can tell you that he was very tall. he might have been over 6 foot. he was solid, but at the same time somehow luminescent. he was silver. i never looked at his face directly because i was frozen, but somehow i knew that even if i did i wouldn't be able to make it out.
this all probably lasted about 5 seconds most, but it felt like it was a long while. it was broken whenever there was a bright flash outside my window and a crack of what i presumed to be thunder. i jumped and looked in that direction, only to roll over and try to face the figure again. however, all i came to find was my closet door.
i shared this with my parents, but they insisted i was dreaming. i knew i was not.
i also very vaguely remember a bright overhead light as though i was on a surgery table. i also recall what could have been small figures running around between my bed and the stereo, standing under 3 foot tall. i am not sure if i was physically conscious for that though, and both of these memories are very broken and short.
so flash forward a bit, and i remember i had first watched the fourth kind. it scared me to death! i was terrified! as i fell asleep, i felt as though i was watched from my window. i even woke up at 3:33; the same time that the abductees in that docudrama experienced everything they did. from that point on, i was scared of the idea of extraterrestrials. i was afraid of aliens. i didn't like them one bit.
i was a senior in high school and i took my first astronomy class and excelled. i loved it. it quickly became not only a hobby but a passion. at this point, i was certain that there was life elsewhere in the universe. it was just too large for us to be the only ones, and somehow, it felt selfish to believe that anyway. i began to grow more aware and less afraid, and began my own research.
i dug deep into local experiences and sightings as listed on mufon. i followed them all, shared them with my astronomy professor, and felt absolutely consumed with the need to find answers. it was about this time i remembered those events from my adolescence and a lightbulb flickered on over my head. "not ghosts... aliens!"
ironically, i had very difficult periods. i was ovulating 100% of the time, and i had scar tissue outside of my cervix despite never having given birth or (known) surgery. this made me wonder if maybe the aliens had done this to harvest my eggs easily.
i was happy because i felt like i was clever!! i had figured all of this out. i had caught them! but i also... still feel very afraid when i go to sleep at night. i am afraid they're going to take from me without my consent.
i read up on the posts bonnie had here and began projecting my silver cord. i have always felt as though i was different and that i had some sort of sixth sense. gathering this psychic energy was very easy for me, and my shield pulsated easily around me, coming from the cord that extends from the top and center of my forehead. i felt safer.
this was just a week ago. now i'm hoping they visit but want to speak to me about the past and either confirm or deny the experience. the irony in all of this is now i wouldn't mind if they took my female anatomy. it is of no use to me now and i will likely have it removed on earth anyway.
if these beings need it, then they can gladly take it. i don't want them to die out.
this is all very metaphysical in nature and i understand if its hard for some to understand... however, my heart aches because it knows all of this as truth, and i want nothing more than to go on the adventures that bonnie has had. i even tried to reach out to her, through the realities, but if i made contact with her i do not recall. i have tried to reach the star people... but i cannot get through to them either. perhaps, i need to train more?
bonnie, can you perhaps give me insight on this? any pointers for an amateur?
and finally, i close with this:
please, look out for me out there.
with love,
orion.
i'll start with a little bit about myself.
my name is orion, and i'm a 20yo boy.
that is not my given name nor is it my assigned gender. however, these are my preferences and i ask kindly that you please respect them. i am mentioning this now in the event that i must post photos of scoop marks and the like on my body or if anyone wants to skype call or speak to me.
i have been reading the posts on this forum since i discovered it and i believe that i am "waking up"! at least, i hope that i am.
my heart wants me to meet the star people. i am already so attached to them and have so much love in my heart! i only want to be friends with them. i feel like my home is out there... i do not believe i was ever meant to be on earth, and that's why i'm having so many struggles and poor fortune keeps befalling me. i keep being misled and hurt by others, and this is partly because i love so deeply, and want to look past any flaws i may see within those who i make an important part of my life.
i believe that i've already been contacted, though i'm not sure if it is paranormal in nature or extraterrestrial. however, my heart definitely feels that it's extraterrestrial.
whenever i was an adolescent, i believe i was abducted repeatedly. however, i didn't make this connection until much more recently, until this year in fact. if anyone else stumbles upon this thread and wishes to reply with their own experiences or thoughts in regard to mine, then please, please do.
at this time in my life, my family had built a house and had recently moved into it. my mother had gotten her tubes tied after me, but then remarried and had a rather dangerous operation to have them untied. it was doubtful that she would even conceive after this given her age and the whole situation. yet, remarkably, she went on to have 3 more children. the oldest is 11 years younger than me.
so my mother was pregnant with her first son, my little brother. i was about 13. i had a deep fascination with space and rather than watching what... well, what other children/teens were watching, i would find myself watching the sci-fi channel or discovery. i remember being very young, probably about 5, and being so excited whenever the new season of stargate sg1 aired!! there is a video of me at age 4, naming all of the planets on a diagram. i was well ahead of my time then and i still feel as though i am.
i had a stereo and tv in my room. these were the first few things affected.
in the middle of the night, my stereo would turn on by itself. it would be much louder than i remember leaving it, and the six-cd changer would open and begin switching through the CDs. once this started, it happened very often, probably weekly. i would always wake in a sweat and with my heart racing when this occurred.
i had told my parents and they told me i had been watching too much ghost hunters and i had probably just set my alarm incorrectly, but i had never changed it from 6am. ever.
things began happening more publicly and around my family as well. i remember interference on my tv when it was on, sometimes showing strange symbols mixed in with the static. there would also be interference over the baby monitor my mother had in the nursery and into her room. it was always louder than the volume was at the time.
at one point, my step-dad thought a man said his name, and was so convinced he stepped out of the shower and began looking for his father in a towel. i told him there was nothing, there was no one, but he said he could've sworn it came from just outside the master bathroom. i'm wondering if it was over the baby monitor.
so all of these things happened. occasionally, stuff would fly off countertops and we would hear running across the back porch or on the roof. we honestly believed we were haunted, and believed that it was in fact a poltergeist. at the time, i was a pubescent girl* with depression. it didn't seem out of the ordinary for a negative entity to attach itself to me.
the thing was, i never felt threatened. i would awake in fear, and i had terrible nightmares. i dreamt i was being drug from my bed by my ankle all around the house, even past my parents who just wouldn't wake up. if i screamed, my voice wouldn't come out; it would just be a breath or gasp. i began begging that i didn't have those dreams. i began praying. i began hoping that the stereo wouldn't turn on because i was so tired and only wanted rest.
soon i had two more dreams. in one, i dreamt i had gathered all the energy in the room in my palm. i didn't do anything with it there, but just held it. it was warm. then, on another, i dreamt that i focused very hard on my body and laid back in my bed. before i knew it, i felt myself trembling, but i was levitating off the mattress. this was a dream of course; i cannot be sure if it actually happened.
whenever we began to move into a new house (we were now a family of 6 and needed more room!), things began to pick up tremendously, further affirming the paranormal speculations. everything came to a head whenever i once again woke up with my heart racing in fear. i was facing my closet, and before me there was a figure.
i rationalized everything very quickly. i had not left my closet door open so this was not clothing making an illusion of a figure. i could not see through him. there was something there. i was frozen, but i wasn't innately afraid. i was just... frozen, in shock?
i remember it all very vividly and i can tell you that he was very tall. he might have been over 6 foot. he was solid, but at the same time somehow luminescent. he was silver. i never looked at his face directly because i was frozen, but somehow i knew that even if i did i wouldn't be able to make it out.
this all probably lasted about 5 seconds most, but it felt like it was a long while. it was broken whenever there was a bright flash outside my window and a crack of what i presumed to be thunder. i jumped and looked in that direction, only to roll over and try to face the figure again. however, all i came to find was my closet door.
i shared this with my parents, but they insisted i was dreaming. i knew i was not.
i also very vaguely remember a bright overhead light as though i was on a surgery table. i also recall what could have been small figures running around between my bed and the stereo, standing under 3 foot tall. i am not sure if i was physically conscious for that though, and both of these memories are very broken and short.
so flash forward a bit, and i remember i had first watched the fourth kind. it scared me to death! i was terrified! as i fell asleep, i felt as though i was watched from my window. i even woke up at 3:33; the same time that the abductees in that docudrama experienced everything they did. from that point on, i was scared of the idea of extraterrestrials. i was afraid of aliens. i didn't like them one bit.
i was a senior in high school and i took my first astronomy class and excelled. i loved it. it quickly became not only a hobby but a passion. at this point, i was certain that there was life elsewhere in the universe. it was just too large for us to be the only ones, and somehow, it felt selfish to believe that anyway. i began to grow more aware and less afraid, and began my own research.
i dug deep into local experiences and sightings as listed on mufon. i followed them all, shared them with my astronomy professor, and felt absolutely consumed with the need to find answers. it was about this time i remembered those events from my adolescence and a lightbulb flickered on over my head. "not ghosts... aliens!"
ironically, i had very difficult periods. i was ovulating 100% of the time, and i had scar tissue outside of my cervix despite never having given birth or (known) surgery. this made me wonder if maybe the aliens had done this to harvest my eggs easily.
i was happy because i felt like i was clever!! i had figured all of this out. i had caught them! but i also... still feel very afraid when i go to sleep at night. i am afraid they're going to take from me without my consent.
i read up on the posts bonnie had here and began projecting my silver cord. i have always felt as though i was different and that i had some sort of sixth sense. gathering this psychic energy was very easy for me, and my shield pulsated easily around me, coming from the cord that extends from the top and center of my forehead. i felt safer.
this was just a week ago. now i'm hoping they visit but want to speak to me about the past and either confirm or deny the experience. the irony in all of this is now i wouldn't mind if they took my female anatomy. it is of no use to me now and i will likely have it removed on earth anyway.
if these beings need it, then they can gladly take it. i don't want them to die out.
this is all very metaphysical in nature and i understand if its hard for some to understand... however, my heart aches because it knows all of this as truth, and i want nothing more than to go on the adventures that bonnie has had. i even tried to reach out to her, through the realities, but if i made contact with her i do not recall. i have tried to reach the star people... but i cannot get through to them either. perhaps, i need to train more?
bonnie, can you perhaps give me insight on this? any pointers for an amateur?
and finally, i close with this:
please, look out for me out there.
with love,
orion.