What are Reptillians & Mantids Doing To My Spine ?
Posted: Wed Feb 26, 2014 3:46 pm
Or; My Life as an Experiment
Written on 25 Jan 2014
About 10 days ago or so I awoke with a strange tenderness on my spine, right between the shoulder blades, and a terrible feelings of disorientation, dread & dispair.
Today when I felt my back its was very sore & there was a mark like a small puncture wound, which became more irritating as the day went on (frankly it was driving me mad), by evening it felt like there was a tiny bit if fine wire sticking out, so I used a venom suction machine on it & which seemed to do the trick, but I could not see an object in what had come out, but then I could no longer feel this little sharp thing sticking out either, and then over days it started to heal.
However on an mental & emotional level I was getting worse & worse, the sense of futility & dread were off the scales, only the sense of duty to my wife kept me here, the blackness was so engulfing I don't think I could have even spelt love, never mind felt it.
Long ago I discovered that a sense of duty can be used as leverage against such states, probably because it comes from the reptilian part of the brain (rather ironically as I shall get to).
To make matters worse I was getting triggered by all kinds of things which caused surges of cortisol, leaving me unable to sleep & exhausted.
I struggled & fought to “get it together” & on Wednesday (22.1.14) managed to get into a deep meditation, which culminated in a memory surging to the surface, after which I very rapidly got back to my old self.
The memory was short but extremely intense, I am certain its a memory due to the way it felt, it certainly wasn't a dream or imagination.
I was in a state of blackout when what felt like someone was drilling a hole in my spine with a small red hot drill bit woke my consciousness from a very deep state of shut down, my body was completely paralysed.
I was laid on my right side on a metal table & some thing was behind me, I was aware of a “hand” on my left arm holding me in place.
However all that was swamped by the loud cracking sound of what sounded like bones, and the overwhelming odour of hot blood, the sort of blood smell that only comes from inside of an animal when its being gutted.
As my eyes came into focus in front of me was another metal operating table parallel to mine 3-4 m away, with two large green Reptoids one either side of the table (the farther one being a browny green) , the one my side had its back to me & blocked a clear view of the other one, I could smell them despite the sickly stench of blood too.
On the table was something I never want to see again, there was what looked like a young man with darkish skin, possibly half cast, on his back, where his left arm should have been there was a gaping wound, & his chest was open like in an autopsy, the Reptoid was in front of his lower abdomen & pelvis, and there were no legs the other side of the Reptoid on the bottom half of the table.
The guys face from the ear forward was also missing.
At this point everything went black.
It is now 5 days later and the memory is in mind any time I am not busy or reading, so its been enough time to mull it over whilst its still very fresh, and what has formed over the last couple of days is that it was some kind of communication in a very reptilian way, they were letting me know something in their brutal & direct way, not enough to tell me anything of great value other than I have some meaning, value or purpose to them, beyond being a lump of meat.
My suspicions are around spines & psychic abilities, possibly spinal fluid & intense fear too.
My youngest brother who was incredibly psychic as a boy has had to have metal rods put in his back to fuse 14 vertebrae just last summer, there is no explanation for why his spine just started collapsing, we are part of a massive family & no one else has got the litany of ailments that my brothers have, I am the only one of the sybs who doesn't need medicines to stay alive.
Two years ago I found myself naked & paralysed on my back on a metal table, there was a large being to my left in a white coat, and two much larger beings behind it, they all had blurry heads but it was obvious that it was a Mantid & two Reptoids.
There was a fourth being behind my head & slightly to the right, who told me telepathically that They would shield my heart & I wouldn't die, which was nice of it, then they started electrocuting me, the pain was incredible, my back was arched like a horseshoe with the juice they were pumping through me, it seemed to go on forever until I eventually blacked out.
Afterwards I was in a bad way, I couldn't even drive for several days and couldn't extend my arms, it was months before I was anything like normal again.
Written 14.Feb.2014
I have had two more things come out of my back just like the first, the second one came out from the next joint between my vertebrae up, it felt like a tiny piece of wire just like the first, & I used the venom pump again, and it looked like a tiny length of wire only about 6mm long, this time it was broad daylight & it just dissolved within seconds into the blood that came out with it. (the first time was at night & there was nothing there by the time I had got a magnifying glass & torch).
Then several days later the exact same thing happened one vertebrae joint up, & was accompanied by a terrible wave of negative emotions (loosh ???).
Written 19. Feb 2014
I just removed another one of those "things" out of my spine, god knows what they are or why they are there, the hole they leave seems to heal much faster than other small wounds too.
Anyone else had anything like this ?
Any ideas what they might be, or what the purpose of this is ?
Written on 25 Jan 2014
About 10 days ago or so I awoke with a strange tenderness on my spine, right between the shoulder blades, and a terrible feelings of disorientation, dread & dispair.
Today when I felt my back its was very sore & there was a mark like a small puncture wound, which became more irritating as the day went on (frankly it was driving me mad), by evening it felt like there was a tiny bit if fine wire sticking out, so I used a venom suction machine on it & which seemed to do the trick, but I could not see an object in what had come out, but then I could no longer feel this little sharp thing sticking out either, and then over days it started to heal.
However on an mental & emotional level I was getting worse & worse, the sense of futility & dread were off the scales, only the sense of duty to my wife kept me here, the blackness was so engulfing I don't think I could have even spelt love, never mind felt it.
Long ago I discovered that a sense of duty can be used as leverage against such states, probably because it comes from the reptilian part of the brain (rather ironically as I shall get to).
To make matters worse I was getting triggered by all kinds of things which caused surges of cortisol, leaving me unable to sleep & exhausted.
I struggled & fought to “get it together” & on Wednesday (22.1.14) managed to get into a deep meditation, which culminated in a memory surging to the surface, after which I very rapidly got back to my old self.
The memory was short but extremely intense, I am certain its a memory due to the way it felt, it certainly wasn't a dream or imagination.
I was in a state of blackout when what felt like someone was drilling a hole in my spine with a small red hot drill bit woke my consciousness from a very deep state of shut down, my body was completely paralysed.
I was laid on my right side on a metal table & some thing was behind me, I was aware of a “hand” on my left arm holding me in place.
However all that was swamped by the loud cracking sound of what sounded like bones, and the overwhelming odour of hot blood, the sort of blood smell that only comes from inside of an animal when its being gutted.
As my eyes came into focus in front of me was another metal operating table parallel to mine 3-4 m away, with two large green Reptoids one either side of the table (the farther one being a browny green) , the one my side had its back to me & blocked a clear view of the other one, I could smell them despite the sickly stench of blood too.
On the table was something I never want to see again, there was what looked like a young man with darkish skin, possibly half cast, on his back, where his left arm should have been there was a gaping wound, & his chest was open like in an autopsy, the Reptoid was in front of his lower abdomen & pelvis, and there were no legs the other side of the Reptoid on the bottom half of the table.
The guys face from the ear forward was also missing.
At this point everything went black.
It is now 5 days later and the memory is in mind any time I am not busy or reading, so its been enough time to mull it over whilst its still very fresh, and what has formed over the last couple of days is that it was some kind of communication in a very reptilian way, they were letting me know something in their brutal & direct way, not enough to tell me anything of great value other than I have some meaning, value or purpose to them, beyond being a lump of meat.
My suspicions are around spines & psychic abilities, possibly spinal fluid & intense fear too.
My youngest brother who was incredibly psychic as a boy has had to have metal rods put in his back to fuse 14 vertebrae just last summer, there is no explanation for why his spine just started collapsing, we are part of a massive family & no one else has got the litany of ailments that my brothers have, I am the only one of the sybs who doesn't need medicines to stay alive.
Two years ago I found myself naked & paralysed on my back on a metal table, there was a large being to my left in a white coat, and two much larger beings behind it, they all had blurry heads but it was obvious that it was a Mantid & two Reptoids.
There was a fourth being behind my head & slightly to the right, who told me telepathically that They would shield my heart & I wouldn't die, which was nice of it, then they started electrocuting me, the pain was incredible, my back was arched like a horseshoe with the juice they were pumping through me, it seemed to go on forever until I eventually blacked out.
Afterwards I was in a bad way, I couldn't even drive for several days and couldn't extend my arms, it was months before I was anything like normal again.
Written 14.Feb.2014
I have had two more things come out of my back just like the first, the second one came out from the next joint between my vertebrae up, it felt like a tiny piece of wire just like the first, & I used the venom pump again, and it looked like a tiny length of wire only about 6mm long, this time it was broad daylight & it just dissolved within seconds into the blood that came out with it. (the first time was at night & there was nothing there by the time I had got a magnifying glass & torch).
Then several days later the exact same thing happened one vertebrae joint up, & was accompanied by a terrible wave of negative emotions (loosh ???).
Written 19. Feb 2014
I just removed another one of those "things" out of my spine, god knows what they are or why they are there, the hole they leave seems to heal much faster than other small wounds too.
Anyone else had anything like this ?
Any ideas what they might be, or what the purpose of this is ?