St. Louis Arch
Posted: Tue Aug 20, 2013 7:44 pm
Okay here's a weird one. My one and only so bad, really bad horrific experience. About a decade ago I visited St. Louis. There was just something about the arch. I felt like I could be anywhere, go anywhere do anything I wanted. I felt like I was closer than I'd ever been to something huge and ground breaking. To this day I have pictures of myself under it surrounded by little balls of light just glimmering off the metal.
I stayed on an "arch" high that carried dejavu with it for days after I got back. Then, suddenly all the joy just soured. And it was sudden. It switched to mind numbing fear. It gets worse, that fear was coupled with an auditory hallucination (one time only..and ugly words too), a visual hallucination (biblical imagery) and nightmares that wouldn't quit.
I never knew why. I assumed I'd gotten neurotic over the family I'd gone to visit there, or the person I was seeing at the time who wasn't right for me. But now I wonder. Overall the whole experience was out of control bad. Like a bad acid trip without the acid. The imagery was of "hell" weirdly, just as exactly as you'd imagine it only much worse. Glad it just happened once. It was my 1408 moment. It lasted for a long long time...months, maybe close to a year.
I stayed on an "arch" high that carried dejavu with it for days after I got back. Then, suddenly all the joy just soured. And it was sudden. It switched to mind numbing fear. It gets worse, that fear was coupled with an auditory hallucination (one time only..and ugly words too), a visual hallucination (biblical imagery) and nightmares that wouldn't quit.
I never knew why. I assumed I'd gotten neurotic over the family I'd gone to visit there, or the person I was seeing at the time who wasn't right for me. But now I wonder. Overall the whole experience was out of control bad. Like a bad acid trip without the acid. The imagery was of "hell" weirdly, just as exactly as you'd imagine it only much worse. Glad it just happened once. It was my 1408 moment. It lasted for a long long time...months, maybe close to a year.